The Growing Pains | everything hurts blog

I honestly feel like I cannot build a piece of furniture without help or the instructions. Not to be a downer, but that's how life feels. Very unpredictable, and you feel very lost without some guidance. I know I'm still young, but the path I choose for myself feels unsteady, like all the prepping they told us to do in high school was only really preparing us for more school. They say it's "for your own good" along with "this will help you out further down in life." You tell

The most gut wrenching thing a person can say to you. We all know what I mean by those's texts. They typically involve a person you really didn't want to hear from. Or a mistake waiting to happen. This is a nightmare to experience because what do you mean you "miss me." Like, what right do you have to crawl back into my life and give me false hope again? Claiming to miss me, were you bored, were you lonely, or were you feeling like you needed someone for the night? "I miss yo

On my days off I tend to reset my life from the week prior, cleaning, studying, attending class, like I'm supposed to do. Yet it doesn't feel like it; the days blend together, and I'm still in bed and haven't eaten. By the time I feel like an insane amount of time has passed, I check, and it's already seven p.m and the day has already been done. This felt like my day-to-day life for the past year and ten months. You never truly know that you are depressed. In my case, I still

What is personal growth? My therapist said its a path to discover one's super self path. But what does that mean? No, like, actually, what does it mean? I have been looking at the ceiling and thinking hard enough to consider myself "growing," because what do you mean I have to go out and actually look for a new way to fix myself from this disaster I call my life. The plan is to disappear from the face of the earth and find a small and quiet place off the coast of Greece, and

Talking sometimes feel like a waste of breathing, like the things you want to say feel useless to the people around you. It makes you wonder why you felt like speaking in the first place. When I mean "everything hurts," it's because it genuinely does. Picture this, you are in your early twenties like me, and you can't seem to figure out why you can't fully heal from what really hurt you. You think to yourself, maybe it's the breakup, or you don't seem to have any good friends